Message title: Why I'm into Voraphilia... (Long)
Message author: Vorpine
Posting date: 2001.02.03 - 21:46 (PDT)
I've thought it through and I'd like to share my thoughts on Voraphilia and why I'm so into it.
First, I'm an artist. I draw furry artwork and have some of my stuff posted in various areas. I like to draw canine characters because that's what I'm best at. Besides, I've kinda got an affinity for them. I'm a fox, myself, and when I logged on in 1997, I quickly found the Furry community. I really didn't fit into the lifestyle aspect and I couldn't get access to any of the Mucks or Muds.
Over the years, I've done a lot of websurfing inside the community, kept and open mind, and I found what I liked. I remember seeing Voraphile stuff back in 1997 too and thinking, "Ooookay. Heh, whatever." I never took it seriously and I never bothered to look at it. Later, I actually met someone in 1999 that was Vore. I asked him what that was, having forgotten, and he explained to me. I had the same reaction, thinking to myself, "Okay, whatever."
The reason I didn't jump right into it was that I was looking at it too literally. I even talked with friends and told them, "I don't know about you guys, but if the person I was with tried to bite into me or was trying to eat me while having sex, that would kind of 'kill' the mood." I never bothered to look at it symbolically. I take things too seriously at times.
Finally, just recently, I did some soul searching again and I was trying to find out what all was I really into. I confirmed that bondage wasn't my thing, but I'll admit to some canine zoo attraction. Also, a person's gender makes no difference to me, but pregant or overweight furs are a major turn off. Anyways, then I sat down with the matter of Voraphilia and opened up to it.
I did this by exploring the best Vore sites I could find and printing out the best artwork. I ended up printing out a lot of Strego's, but I printed some others as well. I sat down with this pictures and tried to figure out if they had any effect on me.
I was surprised to discover that I was aroused by many of the pics. So, then I tried to figure out why. What do I like and what don't I like. What I liked the most was that I kept seeing these characters coming back and being eaten again and again, that it wasn't just a one time experience, that it's a fantasy that doesn't involved a real death. If there is death to it, then it's just a physical one. You see, that's the main thing that turned me away in the first place. I don't want to die. Although, I can see that happening as an honorable "ultimate sacrifice" in a story, I could never do that in real life. I don't want to die THAT way. Being thrown into darkness, being eaten and chewed on alive, to sufficate and feel your body desolve in acids... that's not my idea of fun, but like I said earlier, I was taking this all to literally.
I get into the soft vore. If there's no pain involved, you don't sufficate, and you CAN come back, then I'd be all for it. I think being eaten alive this way would be one helluva experience! All pain and [reality] aside, I'd gladly volunteer to have another fur take me whole. When I think about how that would physically feel, slipping into your friend all warm, slippery, tight, snug, I get aroused. It's symbolically, just like sex in real life in that respect. Just, instead of that one part of penetrating, it's your entire self, your whole body! That's a cool concept and it must feel great! (Especially with what all the tongue can do)
Symbolically, I can understand a lot about this now. I can see the love and true passion for it. It's not about wanting to die, it's about giving yourself, completely and utterly, to your friends. It's about filling them with everything you can, your essense and love. If you chose to go this far, then I guess it could also be the ultimate sacrifice thing. Giving them your life is just about everything you can, so, that too can be even more passionate, but personally, I would want to come back, so I could never get into that.
Everybody's hungry for something, most are looking for a really good friendship and/or love. When another fur allows themself to be eaten, it's like the other fur is getting exactly everything what (s)he's been hungering for. A full belly and a smile symbolizes perfectly satisfaction.
Being Furry, I'm into shapeshifting as well, so I guess that's why I'm also into Vore. In order for a fur to eat another fur of same or geater size, there's gonna have to be some shapeshifting involved. So, being into shapeshifting, I also enjoy the idea of my body stretching or flexing in order to accommodate swallowing my friends. I could get into and enjoy experiencing that as well.
I don't like hard vore, but there is the issue of taste. I will admit that blood has a sweet taste and if I'm going to EAT my friends, I might as well enjoy their taste. I just wouldn't want to cause them any pain, so I don't know how to get around that. If I wanted be selfish, then, yeah, I'd just shove them in my mouth and start chewing away. Their bodies will digest in my stomach anyways, but I couldn't do that. I have to much of a conscious, I could never harm any of my friends.
That's one issue I guess I'm having trouble with. If I eat another fur, at what point would they 'die' and not feel anything further I like to imagine that as soon as I swallow and they reach my stomach, they kind of leave their body and "re-spawn" later on. It's not very realistic, but, hey, it's a fantasy. That's the whole point, right Besides, I know if I was being eaten, I'd like to be able to do it over and over again, not just once and that's it.
With this "re-spawn" thing in mind, there's only one Hard Vore thing I can get into. Eating someone un-voluntarily. As long as they can come back, I think that could be fun, catching a friend and eatting him/her when they're not really wanting to be eaten. The panic and fear would be fun, but only in a playful teasing way.
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Now, here's the key issue and why I asked for help earlier. I've found this stories and all this artwork that portrays what I've just discussed. I'm into and agree to almost all of it. I'm a furry vore that likes to eat and be eaten by other furry vores... the question is, can I really say that Now that you know my story, is what I've shared with you truelly being vore I mean, I realize that what I'm into may sound a lot like playful, sexual, role-playing, but given that I don't die, don't cause or feel any pain, and the laws of physics are actually able to bend, then, yeah, I'd love to experience this in real life. But, am I a true vore or has what I've shared with you seem more like a wanna be post Tell me the truth. I don't want to call myself Vore if I'm not really one at all. I have to know.
Thanks, sorry for the long post. I'll let y'all get back to your meals, er- friends now. Bye! :)
P.S. Thanks for the advice about a Therapiest, but I'll only go to one if I think I'm going nuts and can't deal with reality anymore. This is just about understanding an aspect of myself I never realized existed before. I'm okay with it, I just need to talk with other Vores to clear some things up in my head, to get a better understanding of it.
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